Hey

I am already seeing an organisation to get help with my addiction problems. As you mentioned, it can help you open up and actually help you bandage yourself enough to really deal with the stuff that matters. I believe once I deal with the stuff that matters, I will be ready to stop taking this substance and then deal with the problems that brings.

I don't plan on taking this substance for the rest of my life. I know me, and I know I need to stay on it for now to enable me to open up enough and help me deal with the nitty gritty.

No I don't have anywhere else I can go...even the drugs place I go to said they wont refer me to a therapy until I have come off the substance.