I have a very hard time trusting myself. I'm very impulsive, depressed or hypomanic.

When I'm severely depressed I attempt suicide and when I'm hypo...well anything goes.

I've had to put safety measures in place for myself.
When I'm depressed, all my medication goes to my daughters and if I refuse to go to the hospital, someone stays with me and my T and pdoc always knows what's going on.

When I'm hypo, that's a little more challenging for me. I always hand over my debit card to my daughters, make a place to clean/reorganize, exercise, get on the phone and talk to people to distract myself. I try very hard not to go out anywhere because it's when I'm out that I really get myself in trouble. I'm still getting phone calls from my last episode about 7 weeks ago.

Ironically enough, I met the man of my dreams while in a bad hypomanic episode.