I wish it was that easy. I don't just beat myself up emotionally; I'm borderline mutilating my anatomy because I can't stop. I've been waiting for this to run its course and go away, but it's been well over a year, and progressively getting worse. I used to hate sex...being used as a toilet when you're just a little girl will have that effect. But ever since my breakdown 2 years ago, after the meds and the therapy and everything else, it's that 10-second moment of euphoria that "makes it all go away." If I could lobotomize my libido, I would. I've seriously contemplated doing irreversible and regrettable things to my life in order to make it go away, but I can't put my family through that. And it sucks that I literally have no one to talk to about this, because they think it's funny or "hot." If they saw what I've done to my anatomy, they would think differently.