Hello,

I don't know where to post this. I've always felt anxious around people but often in social gatherings or simply going out to the shops makes me feel collapsed inside. I keep thinking everyone hates me and this is reinforced when I get ignored all the time.

People give me funny looks and then act like I'm not there. No one ever asks how I am today. I feel like an outcast. I have trouble making friends with everyone and can't interact with people.

Relatives think I'm a monster all because I used to run away from family gatherings and yes I argued a lot too. People think I'm not human because no one understands how I feel. When I had cancer a while ago, no one sent me a Get Well message and didn't have any visitors in hospital. I had to make my own way to hospital and back home. When I recovered no one spoke to me and I assume they wanted me to die.

Overall I'm really wondering why people are so nasty and what can I do? am I the only one who feels like an outcast?