Thank you so much for all of your kind words.
allme - I'm not in therapy. I can't afford it right now and the only insurance I have is through a Native American hospital, which is an hour and a half away. I can't afford the gas for that every week. I had some suicidal thoughts while I was on the meds, but they didn't get as bad as they are right now until the increase. Does anyone know what a "good" dosage is for lamotrigine?
Wander - I really want to be honest with my doctor, I'm just hesitant because I don't trust him and I'm worried he'll have me sent to a mental hospital. It's the last thing I need right now.
lilodian4ever - I'm so sorry I put you in a disarray. But your kindness has truly touched me.
Double Edge - Thank you so much. It's weirdly amazing to hear from someone who has exactly what I have, and to have seemed to even go through the same experiences as I have. This life is so beautiful and I wish my pain wasn't always fogging the glass.
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"We are more than the worst thing that's ever
happened to us. All of us need to stop apologizing
for having been to hell and come back breathing.
Your bad dreams are battle scars.
What doesn't kill you cuts you f****** deep
but scars are just skin growing back
thicker when it heals."
~ Clementine von Radics
Bipolar type 2
complex PTSD
GAD
Depression
possibly OCD
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