Thanks everyone. SO GLAD to know other people have felt this way. Well, not glad that any of you felt this way, but I think you know what I mean. Glad someone gets it.

I am seeing a therapist regularly. She is helping me sort out the relationship. That is more than I can describe on my dinner break. And I do have a great friend of 20+ years who is a good sounding board. She noticed a pattern to my mania that my psychiatrist never noticed -- happens every fall. I guess I have some support in place.

I hate that the thing we need to run our lives, our minds, is the problem. Does my mind ever leave out details to get the desired response or advice from a friend or therapist? Maybe.

More later. Many many thanks for sharing you thoughts and helping me feel I'm not alone.