I understand where you are coming from. it seems that it is always one thing after another. I feel like I am never going to get better. my bipolar is stable for the most part but now I have neurological issues from the meds that keep me fully stable so I have to go off of them and will have to go back to having a couple episodes a year if the new meds don't work. on top of that I have been diagnosed DID and have that whole mess to deal with. I work so hard at being healthy so why cant I just get a break for awhile? I hope they find out what is wrong with you and can fix it relatively easily. take care.