Ok, well I hope you find peace with all this. I know it isn't easy. You dont have the power to change your wife...you only have the power to change your thinking. If your wife can't help and you want this to work, you will need to find a way of thinking that makes this ok. Time for a new perspective and belief maybe?

Anyway, this is going to be a journey for you and I honestly whole heartedly admire your honesty and will to make this better.

I am off to bed now. Do take care and I really do hope you and your wife can find a way of making this work.

Don't take everything I have said to heart...please just draw on anything, if anything at all, that resonates with you and helps you learn. Please disregard the rest as mad ramblings