hi cthlyte
I understand living with bipolar can be hell. I lived it for 30 years. then I finally found meds. it took nearly 3 years to find the right mix of meds but now I am symptom free and leading a successful life. I wonder how different life could have been if I have got on meds when I was young. I know it is a pain in the *** to go the medication route, but after trying everything else, and I tried everything, it is the only thing that worked. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome