Don't feel bad about not getting disability. I worked for 23 years full time and pulled a second job for 4-5 of those years. As I wait for a hearing, I truly feel I won't get it either. Heck, soldiers with body parts missing can't even get it.

There's always more than one way to skin a cat. I have been fighting the urge to start a life of crime, since it seems that's what they want me to do. A man's got to survive, one way or another. I am not recommending you do the same by any means, I'm just expressing where this has me at mentally.

As Slick Willy said it best, I feel your pain. You are not the Lone Ranger (alone), as a lot of us here are struggling. Hang tough, this community needs you.