no it isn't u guys.. i appreciate your kind words. i am going through a really tough time in my life right now and have just received another blow to the heart that i did not expect from someone i loved very much.. but thats life right? i shouldn't have fallen in love, but we cannot control our feelings. this will be another life lesson for me that i will overcome. just at this time i am feeling what my name is agony.

love u all,
agony007