I am struggling right now to imagine a future that is worth living. sometimes I feel like everything will be just fine. but most of the time it's more like nothing is ever going to be better than right now. from now everything will just get worse and all the things that are already bothering me and I have not found a solution by now will never go away.
I feel like there can be no happiness for me like for other people. I will always have to be alone and without any recognition whatsoever and all slight indications of something to improve are just in my head and will show to be pure imagination.