Yea same here man. I've been reading about Jean Claude Van Damme's struggles and I like how casual he makes it feel. We are who we are, no need to get embarrassed and let it destroy your life through social anxiety. Today was the first good day I've had in a long time, just letting things go. Still trying to stay on top of the mania when I can, but it's ok to let it out a little bit. I've just been so uptight for years now and the progress I've made is absolutely phenomenal. I don't want to lose any of that, but I want to have a real life too. Anyway, Jean Claude really focused on fitness and I think a lot of fitness people have mental health issues. I think fitness really helps balance people out. I'm trying to treat it as my medication now. Get it in my head if I don't get in the gym everyday, dangerous things can happen. I don't want to feel like that anymore. Hopefully things work out, I feel great today, had the best day ever with my daughter.