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Originally Posted by Terabithia
thank you, kaliope, especially for the hearts and bouncing dude!
I experience it more as a fear of causing pain and/or a fear of rejection. I guess in fearing rejection, I must be fearing judgment first of all. But hurting someone, most of all, and rejection are the only consequences I fear. I feel very disturbed from these thoughts.
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I grew up with survivor's guilt from a siblings death (though it was an act of God). So, yes I absolutely know what you're feeling. I did the opposite and put up brick walls for many years to avoid any attachments or commitment. Letting people in meant I would be responsible for too much. I was also a door mat. So called "friends" knew they could steal, cheat, cuss me out whatever. That's the downside to putting everyone ahead of me.
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