i'm sorry to hear that you're having a hard time dealing with this whole process of conceiving. it can be very difficult, but try to enjoy your life with the hubby AS you're trying to conceive because once you have a little one, it's totally different. I know this is easier said than done. my husband and I tried for some time, then I finally became pregnant. during that pregnancy, I was stressed about every little thing, it wasn't a good time in my life, and it turned out that we lost that baby after 9 weeks. I believe everything happens for a reason, and though I was crushed, I now look back and realize it may not have been the best time for us. i'm sure you've tried many methods to conceive, but I just thought i'd share mine with you as we finally have a happy, healthy beautiful baby girl now. i'm no professional so you may want to check with a doctor before trying any of these: take pre-natal vitamins with folic acid, use "pre-seed" (lubricant that doesn't kill his swimmers and may help them get to their destination better), and an inversion table (not recommended if you have a bad back). the inversion table is something we bought for about $150, and I would get on that hoping gravity may help his swimmers. we used all of these methods and I feel like it definitely worked. I hope everything works out for you two and that you can welcome a healthy happy baby soon!