you are not alone! I just wanted to say that you did a great thing by leaving someone who abused you! that in itself shows your strength and you reaching out here is a good start as well. you know that you're worth more. she was a bully so don't listen to that abuse. many employers have an employee assistance program that may be free or low cost. it's worth it to check out a professional who can help you sort through these difficulties. good luck!!