Suicide is bad. I lost a couple of friends through the years from it, but never a parent. However, I feel that the folks who say it's selfish are in reality the ones who are being selfish. They don't know the misery, pain, turmoil, and suffering our bp minds go through.

Next time I consider it, I absolutely will not disclose it to anyone. Why? Because, is my life better than the last time that I got very close? Hell no it's not. In fact it's worse.

So, my next time, I will succeed.