You haven't been here for a while a lot of us use here because we don't get enough out side support. Please don't stress about coming here. I would really hope you're willing to slowly add your blood pressure medicine back as I really enjoy talking to you. I've said before I'll help you find whatever resources you and your father need but being a care taker currently isn't healthy for you. Have you started to like your therapist more? Have you finally got into the pdoc?