Thanks for your responses. One of the hard things for me is that I started therapy for a physical health problem (I believe mind and body are interconnected and think that my emotions are related to my health problem). I was feeling really emotionally stable at the time I started therapy, I was sleeping well, everything was fine, except that I was sad about my health. I'm not used to having to deal with my emotions which were well and truly buried (I have always wondered why I didn't feel much emotion). I found it helpful and thought provoking what you wrote Leah - what I didn't say in my post is that I also waited until my husband was asleep and then went downstairs for a little cry. I didn't want him to know I'm sad - I don't want to be that sad person.
I read soccer mum's thread about who leads the conversation, and I was so surprised that it seems to be mainly the therapist who leads - my expectation is that the therapist would try to enable the client to lead it - to try to reduce the power that the therapist has over the client. I'm feeling a bit sceptical about the kind of therapy my therapist is doing. I feels somehow there is a focus on my therapist interpreting, analysing and changing me. But what I want is to be accepted and listened to. I really just want to talk about my feelings which, as my therapist knows - I never have to anyone.
I've emailed my therapist back and I am going to go again. I'm trying to plan a way to discuss this with her without attacking her, but I am so afraid she'll do some interpretation of this (challenge me). I am really not a confident person, and I am really afraid to have this conversation.
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