i have hardly opened up to any of my friends.
either they sense smth is wrong but never ask, like a mutual understanding, or more like a taboo
or they never sense or realise anythings wrong. I can pretend so well. when they asl how i am, i just say fine
sometimes i am tired of pretending. but the world doesn't evolve around me

as for relatives. same as above. they just think it's depression, which is way more understandable than bipolar. I am just skipping my meals out of depression rather than ED. Whatever, sometimes i wish they know so they can understand. but i realised it doesn't matter or go the way i want. One of my aunt knew i was depressed, and she offered me 'god' as solution and her experience. Thanks, but it doesn't help me to feel better.