I agree with Carrie... I know it is a hard thing to deal with when someone who was close to you dies... especially when they committed suicide... but you are not to blame, and i know we could all say that until we're blue in the face... but u may still think so... but i guess we can try then.... You are not to blame! She made a choice that was no one's but her own. You didn't choose it for her, and being there for her may not have done anything at all, because as Carrie said, she would probably have been at the point where she closed herself off, as many people who are suicidal do. (((hugs)))
~Julie

"Sometimes it takes us to the bottom of our misery to understand the truth..."
~Gustav Havel - existentialist