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optimistic_dolphin · Sep 04, 2014, 11:39 AM

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Originally Posted by vjdragonfly

You have some really good drawings and I think it is ok to draw out your feelings. I'm not a great artist but to me, when I do draw, it creates an outlet, a window to my emotions. I even recommended it to my daughter to draw out her emotions. There is so much you can say in a picture and you have talent. On another note, stop and take note as to what state of mind you are in. Do you feel in control enough that you can ride through this till Monday? If not, as bad as it may sound, keep yourself safe and go to the hospital. Keep us informed on how you are doing.

Hi
thanks for your compliment. Monday has passed and I have seen my dr. I am not sure if i mentioned in this post earlier - I took more sleeping pills than i should be taking one night. I know it won't kill me, but i also know i can sleep longer, or even secretly wish i will never wake up. well, of coz i did. one thing i don't being inpatient is to be ridicule by the nurses. They are gossiping behind each patient and judging them with a normal-person mindset.

i told my dr about the 'overdose' and she made me tell my mum. well, then she asked me what would i do if i am the doctor and a patient is doing that. I said i would use medicine to make the suicidal thought go away. So she adjusted my new med by doubling the dose. 75 to 150mg. But it's an anxiety med. I am bloodly depressed, not anxious. Right now I am still stuck with the suicidal thoughts, always thinking if i wana overdose again. school started and i don't wana deal with lect or tutorial. This makes me all the more suicidal...