Thank you all. I think finally I have let it all out... I am exhausted and will hope to rest well tonight.

I will try to let him know what I need tomorrow and clarify some things.

I suppose I have felt so angry off and on for so long here it amazes me that others do not feel anger. I do not know if that is a blocking mechanism or if others are at peace....or ? My goal is to work a negotiation. I think that when I think of a successful departure to this life one of the things is to be at peace. That would be such a victory I think... or to be able to be angry and feel ok with that too really. I never know if my anger is appropriate and like somewhere there should be a volume knob.... lol... If only we could be so lucky.

I have almost made it ... what a long long week.

Thanks for the beautiful sail painting Echoes. I truly love it and it makes me smile...in a good way.