Hi Fuzzy, I'm sorry you've lost some people who mattered to you. I can imagine you're wondering what the point is of caring/of starting to care again/of sharing or investing yourself in others at times??? But they were still part of your life and nothing can take that away from you, what you had with them still mattered/matters even if they are no longer around. And you can take comfort from that, you can still feel good about the relationship you had with them.
Unfortunately when you're connecting with people on-line/through a web site, lot of things that may shorten that connection e.g. their problems with the web site or others on there.........still just try to take what you can from those connections..........and make the most of those/new/different relationships???
And I can imagine lots of other people in your life, even online, who still/do/will care about you so much because as we all know you are a really caring person.
And please don't vanish from here .
You matter so much, and I'm sure you've helped so many people in so many ways. You are always going to be important to people on here.
And if you want to talk about the abuse (about anything!!) then we're here for you too. I know it's got to be really hard for you, but you're not on your own

Alison