Just needed to vent a bit about this SI thing. I've been cutting for nealrly 8 years. I can go months without doing it, and then, suddenly, it will be all I can think about. Usually I spend a few days obsessing about it - thinking about cutting while I'm at work, or out with people, or some other totally inappropriate time. Eventually, I'll give in, like I did last night. I think, in this case, I was stressed about a situation at work, but sometimes, there's no trigger. I'll just cut for the sake of cutting. It's almost like I'm afraid to lose it - like it won't be there when I need it. I wish I really wanted to stop, but I don't.

I don't have the guts to go to therapy. I keep thinking about it, but I'm afraid that, even if I went, I couldn't talk about cutting. And I have no idea how someone could help me stop. No one knows about my SI or that I'm anything other than perfectly well adjusted. I guess we all have our secrets.

Just wondered about other people's experiences sharing their SI with a therapist. Thanks for letting me ramble.