Hi
thanks for your compliment. Monday has passed and I have seen my dr. I am not sure if i mentioned in this post earlier - I took more sleeping pills than i should be taking one night. I know it won't kill me, but i also know i can sleep longer, or even secretly wish i will never wake up. well, of coz i did. one thing i don't being inpatient is to be ridicule by the nurses. They are gossiping behind each patient and judging them with a normal-person mindset.

i told my dr about the 'overdose' and she made me tell my mum. well, then she asked me what would i do if i am the doctor and a patient is doing that. I said i would use medicine to make the suicidal thought go away. So she adjusted my new med by doubling the dose. 75 to 150mg. But it's an anxiety med. I am bloodly depressed, not anxious. Right now I am still stuck with the suicidal thoughts, always thinking if i wana overdose again. school started and i don't wana deal with lect or tutorial. This makes me all the more suicidal...