I can relate to the hopelessness. I too have days when I think things are going to be better then pow something happens to knock my feet out from under me. today is one of these days.(thank goodness this day will be over in a few hours and I can start over with a new day tomorrow) then I get on here and start reading and realize that I am not alone in this. knowing I'm not alone really helps. I know I can get on this site and talk to others who are there too. I went through this once before, although not as long as this time, so I do know it can get better. and I didn't have a group like this to help me either. I know I have made it worse by shutting people out and that's why I joined this group. I want to start communicating with other humans instead of hiding at home with my dog. since I am severely depressed too I'm not sure what to say other than to encourage you to keep going and to keep reading. it will get better. it did for me before and I'm counting on that it will again. they are very friendly and supportive here. the work to get there is worth it. that I know from the past. we can all do it together. I am sending you encouragement hope and support: hug: