I've learned more about mental states and their interconnections. From this I've allowed myself to open up areas that I hadn't really developed as much since I was so overdependent on intellect. I've learned real compassion, for myself and others, not just seeing the wrongness of being victimized. I reached a point where my psyche was safe and strong enough to allow the processing of very early sometimes pre-verbal traumatic experience. And I guess what is up currently is that focusing on building a future where the past is just a factor but not a powerful or dominant factor is the setting up of a life with true freedom.