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Originally Posted by Erti
I think I need someone to talk to. About anything really... Just someone to talk to.
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What do you want to talk about? We could do it on roll call? Or do you mean like a T?
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Originally Posted by The_little_didgee
I have had depersonalization a few times. It seemed to happen a lot when I was 25 and 26 when I was ill. It went away when I was put on olanzepine. Apparently it can happen in people with psychotic disorders. Severe anxiety can cause it too. Some therapists will automatically assume there is a history of abuse but that isn't always the case.
Derealization sounds scary. How do you cope with it? I have never had that. Something similar happened when I was 26. My body and mind were being controlled by a other worldly being and the world around me appeared fuzzy. It was like I was between two universes.
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It depends what you call abuse I guess, but I don't consider myself abused in the past & I dissociate sometimes. Twice I have actually lost time and that really was scary! I 'woke up' hours later having driven, then walked the second time, a few miles away to my 'safe place' on campus by the lake. I could've killed someone in my car/gotten run over, but it's like your conscious mind checks out and your subconscious keeps you safe but unaware.
But I don't find depersonalisation or derealisation that scary. With derealisation, I just felt like I was watching a very realistic 3d movie. Sometimes it's paired with depersonalisation, but either way I have to keep reminding myself to watch out for cars etc cos I forget that everything is actually real & I could get run over.
It sounds different to what you felt like controlled by beings, so maybe that's not dissociative but psychotic somatic stuff, idk? I have felt myself dragged down the bed by invisible creatures (I actually moved down the bed!!), but that felt 100% real at the time, not dissociative. I still don't understand if it was a tactile hallucination/somatic delusion or whatever, how I actually ended up dragged on my back down the bed???
*Willow*