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Originally Posted by regretful
I'm in the "fake it till you make it" mode. I do feel like the walls are closing in on me, but if I type optimism, then I must be thinking optimism, so it holds the depression at bay, even if it is just for a minute.
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It is good that you find that helps you. I do talk in optimistic language and of a future etc. but mostly that is about other's lives or too seem 'normal' and together to the people around me. It is always there though and I get a sinking feeling after I have.
It is not me coming to terms with not wanting this any more. It is trying to get the people around me to come to terms with it and talk in that way, and ultimately, give their blessing I suppose. Loving and not wanting to hurt people makes me very trapped and torn really
I am glad you still have some fight in you and I admire that
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