hi trajklogik
I think with the loss of these very public figures it may just be making you nostalgic for the past and all the other things you have lost in life. they were part of your joy and happiness and you seem to be thinking of all the other things that brought you joy and happiness that are no longer a part of your life. but you know, you don't have to be a kid to re-experience some of these things. go ice skating. go swing on a swing. go do something childish and have fun. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome