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Old Sep 04, 2014, 04:49 PM
The_little_didgee The_little_didgee is offline
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It depends what you call abuse I guess, but I don't consider myself abused in the past & I dissociate sometimes.
I guess all the bullying I endured in school and my psychiatric misdiagnosis can be considered trauma or abuse. I know I don't have the kinds of problems that people tend to post in the psychotherapy forum.

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Twice I have actually lost time and that really was scary! I 'woke up' hours later having driven, then walked the second time, a few miles away to my 'safe place' on campus by the lake. I could've killed someone in my car/gotten run over, but it's like your conscious mind checks out and your subconscious keeps you safe but unaware.
Losing time sounds so scary. I never experienced anything like that without being acutely ill or using a mind altering substance. My dad lost time when he drove to Ottawa when my sister was in a serious car accident and required emergency surgery. He has no psychiatric history whatsoever.

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But I don't find depersonalisation or derealisation that scary. With derealisation, I just felt like I was watching a very realistic 3d movie.
Is that like a visual distortion? Objects appear to come alive and standout. They seem to have an aura and can sometimes vibrate.

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It sounds different to what you felt like controlled by beings, so maybe that's not dissociative but psychotic somatic stuff, idk? I have felt myself dragged down the bed by invisible creatures (I actually moved down the bed!!), but that felt 100% real at the time, not dissociative. I still don't understand if it was a tactile hallucination/somatic delusion or whatever, how I actually ended up dragged on my back down the bed???

My experience felt real and I had no insight when it happened. I just went along with it.

I'm not sure what a tactile hallucination is because I never had one. The closest experience I had was feeling like there was a straight tube that connected my mouth to my ****. There was no stomach, and small and large bowel inside my abdomen.

Another weird but different experience I had was with a fan. I heard voices in the noise it made.
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