Hi Fuzzybear. I am so sorry for your pain. I have been there both on the internet, but more so IRL. I remember I had a best friend who lived across the street from me for 10 years. When she moved I was heartbroken. I caught up with her on facebook. But it's not the same because I don't trust sharing private stuff on facebook. It hurts to loose people you grow close to. But please Fuzzy, don't disappear. you are a wonderful person, and as Clara said, we need you here. We love you and you are always so helpful and supportive to the rest of us. Love and hugs coming your way.