My heart goes out to you. Don't be so hard on yourself or your husband. It's not your fault or his fault. It is a hurtful painful thing in the heart when you want a child and it's just not happening. Everything will come in its time for a reason. My parents had the same problem. They could not conceive a child and back in the 1950's and 1960's they did not have the medical advances they have today for infertility. My parents applied to an adoption agency and did a lot of praying. They ended up adopting first my older brother, then me in 1962. They were the best parents I could have ever asked for in the whole world. I miss them dearly. Mother passed away in 2009 and daddy passed away in 2010. They were very old and sickly by that time. Adoption may not be something you want to consider at this point, but it is always an option as well. Much love to you and best of wishes.