Yes... me too. It's hard. It's getting a tiny bit better as I get older, and as I take *tiny* little risks and see that things are ok. But, there's still stuff I know I need to share with my T, so that he has the whole picture, and I just can't. I'm working on it, but not there yet.

I hope you get some rest, and feel better soon. It's hard, but you're doing great. Telling your T stuff is the first step... if you can, can you talk to your T about the feeling sick when you tell too? It might help her/him understand you better, and help better? I find that if I'm not so clear on that aspect, they don't get it... and they assume I'm fine (I tend to look ok, even though I'm going absolutely crazy inside - it sucks!).