Hello everybody,<br />
Like many of you out there I'm suffering from lots of anxiety preventing me from living a happy life. I started to realize I had this issue when I started high school and it has been very difficult for me to focus on class work without getting distracted, becoming disorganized because of impulsiveness, and my pacing.<br />
A little history: 5 years ago, I moved from a small quiet town in a state with a low reputation to a much more well regarded one. I was very nervous at the time and couldn't tell what emotions I had. The school I started attending was pretty decent in an affluent suburban school district. Before high school, I felt that I had the same problems, but I somehow managed to cope with it. I also have depression. Because I'm not able to get the grades I want, I get more depressed making me care less and not try. Even when my classes are easy in a semester, I still have the same problem with procrastination and inattention and depression. I know I'm smart because I was doing well before and I know a lot of things, but my management in school became really bad. I think I'm pretty good at math, but I've struggled this year because I would get stressed out and I would get distracted a lot during class. My parents think it's because I don't do my homework, but I would do all of my homework if I wasn't so stressed out with intrusive and racing thoughts in my head. When I find something intriguing or interesting, I'll somehow find a way to distract myself from the things i need to get done preventing me from doing it.<br />
Now, I'm not sure, but I think a lot of my anxiety has come from being isolated through video games and the internet. I use the internet SO much, I'm really dependent on it, but I'm trying to get better. I've started to realize that a lot of my anxiety has come from my sister always telling me what to do in my child making me become not independent and nervous all the time. Currently I'm taking Wellbutrin at 300mg. The meds I have taken so far have not really helped, although I've been able to concentrate better with wellbutrin. It's hard for me to know when it helps, because sometimes I think it does and sometimes I think it doesn't.<br />
I just started school (junior year), and i don't want to get in this bad loophole again. Right now I'm struggling to change my classes to the ones I want but my counselor won't let me switch them.<br />
So pretty much my main priority right now is to do really well in school (getting all As), as it has not been manageable for me before. I feel better with Wellbutrin, but junior year is supposed to get really difficult.<br />
So tell me...<br />
(I'm very desperate)<br />
What do i do?<br />
I would like to add more details, but there is so much to write (thinking about this made me post this later than i should've).<br/>