As of today i have watched and had to deal with everyone that i cared about walk out of my life. The last friend that i had wants nothing to do with me anymore. It makes me wonder, what is so wrong with me that makes it so easy to just write me off and not think twice about it. All i do is work and come home sit in my room by myself, no one to talk to, no friends left, no girlfriend, no kids. Just a job and a room, that is all my life is now. Nothing is fun. I feel like life is just a big waiting room, like at a dr office, just quietly sitting waiting to finally be called upon. But no one ever does, i try to meet new people but all i really can grt is a quick hello. How do u find a reason to push on and have a happy/normal life when no one sees you as normal. When no one thinks that you are worth the time. When people u care about treat u like u have a disease and try there hardest to avoid you. When your not even worth a return text from someone your close to. I am so lost and have been all my life. I have never felt good enough to even share a lunch table with people because i feel like they see me as annoying or a burden or tjey look at me like "i cant believe he thinks he csn sit here" this is the first time ive ever tried to open up and talk about how i really feel inside, so forgive me if its all over the place. I have so much pent up anger frustration sadness guilt regret, a whole lot of all of that. I feel worthless, like my life has no value to anyone. Has any one else ever felt like this?