Thank you!

I am so scared of the reality I face without Kratom and Tramadol. It is a reality I don't think I can do again.

I am a member of a drugs forum and that have a section for Kratom....high users and long term users do suffer from terrible side effects. They compare it to any withdrawal you face coming off an opiate. ...which is why I need to do this slowly.

I just know I am not capable of coming off these substances while not in therapy. I am questioning my decision to lie after reading some more replies but I really don't see any other way being good for me. I know it will be too hard without the right support and I will end up back on the substances again. Which is why I think telling this lie so I can get in to therapy is my best option.