Your kindness is overwhelming "Can't stop Crying, Snake Charmer" Thank you , I appreciate you

I am trying to survive this and feel very lost in who I am. Usually I am always strong, determined and in control and defined myself as a nurturer. Now I feel broken. I never knew loving could hurt so much. I have never felt so desperate to breathe. I am afraid to smile or heaven forbid laugh for it takes away the pain I feel. I am in pain and I want it. I truly feel for those who have lost someone. I really didn't know how horrible it is for some.

I will get stronger and accept I have to wait and take the negativity my daughter gives me. I wish I could understand her, know what she is thinking, support her in anyway, to be her biggest fan, and love her unconditionally. Right now I get the silent treatment and a few weeks ago I had her with me.

I worry she won't address her issues. She will never accept our love. She won't take her inheritance which she is entitled. I worry she will never have a relationship with us and she misses out on a strong support system.