Hmm sometimes I feel that way, but then again I also feel a lot of these 'decisions' where more things that seemed the only option at the time. Or influenced by how i was experiencing symptoms...I mean it's not like I had it all going well enough for me and then I slipped into a depressive episode and threw it all away for instance. But yeah maybe had I known what I know now i wouldn't have bothered with college(which I didn't get through anyways) and would have dropped out of highschool and tried just finding work instead....but who knows even then I still could have ended up on SSI.

So yeah I guess it seems more the mental conditions and symptoms that make it hard to function have done more to ruing things than my decisions per say, though I've had plenty of not so great decisions just don't think any that really ruined my life per say.