Yup, but I don't think in the same way. I've been reading stuff that I wrote from my last round of "attempted therapy" - and it's pretty awful. Mostly, I feel bad for "me then"... that the Ts seemed to be so awful (!), and that I couldn't see it and leave faster. I kept thinking that *I* was doing something wrong, that *I* needed to be better, more open, more understanding. That basically I was such a huge broken mess that T after T after T could not deal with me. It was awful, and really honestly kind of traumatizing in itself.

(((ThisWayOut))) - I'm sorry that you still struggling with feeling bad and like you had anything to do with your T leaving! I wish there was an easy way to take the logical stuff that we know and translate it into "emotional knowing" !!!