(((((bronee)))))
it is so easy when things are going 'ok' to see what 'should' be done to help ourselves i.e. throwing away the blade so that you CAN'T cut any more. But realistically, unless you live in straight jacket in a padded cell you will always be able to find a way of SIing if the urge is great enough. Taking that huge step of throwing the blade away takes sheer guts/courage/bravery and also shows that you are ready to begin healing. Good luck with however this pans out, esp if you are ready and able to throw that blade away. Take care and stay safe