Under my present circumstances, I really need to be disciplined, resourceful and focused. Even though I am bouncing with anxiety, I am also acting inappropriately considering the challenges I am facing. I'm heavily engaged in social media right now when I should be looking for a job. I'm being very flirty towards someone I know has more than a casual interest in me despite being in a very long relationship, when I should be figuring out how I am going to pay for healthcare until I employed again. I grabbed the impulse somehow just as I was about to escalate the situation. I will be in a social setting with her tonight, and my partner of several will be with me as well. It's a dangerous situation and I am going to come up with an excuse not to go. I'm equal parts anxiety and hypo-manic at the moment. I'm hardly sleeping but not being very productive. I know the warning signs of when I'm heading for trouble, but I can't seem to reign myself in.