I understand where you are at. I am going thru a med change right now and having the same problem. t says I can call her and I keep wanting that contact when I feel like I am spinning out of control, but then tell myself there is nothing she can do for me but reassure me and that just makes me feel needy and I don't want to take up her time with that and possibly annoy her, she told me she has faith that I will be ok. so that is what PC is for, to post all my feelings of craziness any time I want for others to identify with and know I am not alone. neither are you. take care. private message if you need to