my first brand new car buy was 2 years ago was out of mania and was in debt and couldn't afford the payments.

Today feeling down I had the thought to go buy a car, I test drove it and the idea of owning it made me feel better, I was ready to write the check until I didn't like one minor feature...Salesmen got pissed and tried to let me stew for a few minutes twice.

I'm also in the process of buying a house.

I only feel good when I eat or buy things

I have money now but life isn't any better, I wish I was manic