I mentioned in one of my other threads earlier this week that I had a friend who hasn't responded to anything I have sent in the past few weeks and who had promised to meet with me to discuss some difficult things and never followed through on that promise.

Well, she finally got around to texting me and she apologized. Which was nice. But I still felt like I needed to let her know that her actions had hurt me and made me feel angry. So I did, as politely as my mind (which really just wanted to say "piss off") could manage. And that was almost 2 hours ago. And she hasn't responded.

I know I should have just kept my feelings to myself. I shouldn't have made her feel bad for them, and she probably hates me now. I am such a big jerk and a terrible person. I used to just shrug everything off because I didn't want to make people unhappy. I have told her and many others a million times "it's okay" when I was hurting inside. And the one time I speak up, I ruin everything. I think therapy has made me more aware of how I am feeling in response to things, but I don't think anyone else wants to deal with it.