Things have been so rough that after long work days, I often take the long way home and drive out into the countryside late at night to clear my mind. Sometimes I drive in silence or just turn on some ballads. I drive for miles yet I feel so lame and lonely. It's so hard to break out of this rut I'm in.. I just can't deal with the uncomfortable feelings and my emotions are everywhere. I've almost fallen asleep behind the wheel a few times because of how exhausted I am. It's gotten to the point where I've cried almost every day. My depression feels strong in those moments and I want to call someone or cry on someone's shoulder but I don't want to be a burden.

My rant for the evening. :/