No, I just looked it up (Final Exit Network | Ensuring Death with Dignity).

Some years ago, I was in lots of mental anguish, and I thought my death would be the solution. I had several dreams of actually dying in my sleep--I didn't think one could die in one's dreams, but my therapist said it happens. I was slipping down and down, and continued to think that death would be the solution. Then one night, I again died in my sleep, violently. I watched my corpse while I hovered as a spirit above it. I thought I would be peaceful, but my spirit was in even more extreme pain because I did not have any way to vent the anguish. No voice to scream or shout, no feet to stomp, no hands to journal my pain away. I was stuck with it all. I awoke and bolted upright with a pounding heart, with the dream message that I needed to find peace with myself while I am living so I could die in peace because it would be worse to carry that mental anguish into death....

As a consequence, I have made a choice to live and to try to be at peace with myself. I am not always successful at this, so I need meds and support. But I am at more peace today than then...

Take care!