It's amazing how much harder we are on ourselves than we're on others. It seems like (at least for me) I developed negative self-awareness by looking at myself from the eyes of others…and usually they pointed out were I was wrong but they rarely told me ways that I was good. So it just seems like if I'm falling short in anyway, that's just how I am (disobedient, not smart enough, ugly, too this or too that..) BUT YET positives are either attributed to other people, it wasn't really that hard anyway, or it's something I "should" be doing and therefore shouldn't be celebrated.

It's amazing how we take these awful things with us and let it fester :/