I keep getting incredibly stressed and agitated by dumb things like having trouble understanding something or I can't get my hair to work or I am worried about having to go to school and be around people (just a few examples) and I start getting upset and yelling and getting tight feeling in my chest and I'll obsess over it and occasionally my family will come and yell and tell me to calm down, to take a break, I have control of my emotions, BUT I DON'T otherwise I wouldn't be upset at all because its not like I want to be upset and its stupid. And I'll just be soaked in tears I will refuse to stop obsessing about it and I will throw stop and hit things and kick things and hit myself and break things (my dad also does this when hes upset or angry and ya) and I've broken my mirror in my bathroom and kicked or hit holes in doors and walls and its stupid I don't want to but I do and I hate it. Sometimes I will eventually just run into my room or lock myself in the bathroom and I will cry and try to hide in my blankets or in the corner or something and I just cry and feel stupid and I might hit myself to the point I have a bunch of ugly bruises or as I recently relapsed in cutting the other day cut myself, or (and I do this also in just situations when I am really stressed about something) scratch myself so much my skin comes off and I bleed a bit and it scabs and leaves a scar, and its all just so stupid because I get obsessed about all these stupid little things and it gets so big, like today alone I broke my mirror in the bathroom and kicked a hole in a door (both of witch I feel incredibly stupid for and I regret and I keep just getting even more anxious over them and ughudise). I also even almost started to have another attack like this just because nothing was loading and I really needed to talk to someone about this, and its so stupid. Its just incredibly immature, and stupid and I don't want to its so stupid I want to stop but I don't have control I'll just start getting more and more stressed and my body just becomes stiff and tense and I will just start getting upset and throwing stuff or hitting myself or stuff around me and it just isn't helping anything. Its so stupid. Can someone please help me